(Wading In Gloop)
It was a day of knowing I’m not thinking well. Not thinking clearly.
I’ll think I’m making progress but then I get a harsh, sharp reminder. I’m not who or how I was.
What Have I Learned (So Far)
There are any number of factors whittling away at who you are. Age. Damage. Complacency. Chance. Genes. Knowledge. Experience. Impositions. People. Life. And so on.
With all that whittling, I forget to keep looking back. At best I’m merely glancing. I’m not finding the formative elements; I forget to keep trying to learn about myself.
Keeping on keeping on – looking forward is easier. And looking forward is always what I’ve done by default. But staying in your familiar rut is counter-productive. Life’s all about learning, one way or another.
Learning – at the very least, you learn about your own stupidity. I guess you could dress that up as gaining better self-knowledge – I don’t think I’d be dressed in an emperor’s new clothes. (Can I say that? Does that even make sense?)
Arguably … being aware of a problem or problems is itself positive.
After all, you can’t do anything without firm base knowledge.